Inner Thoughts…

i’ll try to make this as short as possible…
let me start by expressing how much i love myself…
i love myself more than anything and anyone else!
i don’t know if this is weird but let me tell you this..
because ilove myself so much, i always stick to the things that make me happy, even the things that can ruin my life and even the things that hurt me…

i hate the feeling of rejection so i choose the people i go with.
i may have low standards, i may not always be with the good ones and be with the ‘troublesomes’ instead…but i honestly find the BEST ones in the WORST crowd… Real people with reaL attitude.

if i love a person i always try to fit in their lives… it doesn’t matter if it takes so much adjustments for me…
i don’t risk my relationships with simple things… i’d never wanna lose anyone over a penny… and if not the material things, i’d lower my pride to apologize if some way it’s my fault.

im patient only with my friends and family.

when it comes to serious talks, i always expand my understanding as much as possible. and i always try to keep my opinions kind. but i still hold my own judgements carefully.

i tend to make sudden decisions when im emotional.but i take them back and eat my pride when i realize they’re wrong especially when the situation hurts me more.

i’m a go-getter and always get what i want. im patient and i know how to wait for the right time for things. but when i already said ‘it’s mine’, i’ll make sure it’s mine.

i’m trying to make-up for all the things i’ve done to my family. i may be really a rebel and arrogant sometimes but God knows how much i dedicate my dreams and goals for them. i am blessed with a 99% perfect family and i thank God for it.

Nothing really threats my life except me. I am afraid of nothing. Especially not a bitch can scare me. but aside from my feet, my heart is weak…

I cry when im trying to keep my patience and when im badly hurt inside. my tears are precious and you won’t see them unless i love you.

what else..???
ahmmm…
for everyone, who thinks badly of me… know me well first then judge me. ask me anything, honesty is my virtue. there are so many reasons why i am loved and why some things are traded for my presence and attention.hahaha! SO don’t ask me things you won’t wanna hear the answers…hehehehe!

i know i owe GOD a lot for doing something unforgivable…
but i hope he still listens to my heart and understands my feelings…
i don’t pray he take my burden way…i just wish he stand by me while i carry this burden inside me….